I haven't been diagnosed with agoraphobia but I have realized that over the last couple years I prefer to spend all my time inside my home. I prefer winter because it gives me an excuse to stay home without feeling as guilty. I feel like I want to go and do things, I day dream about smiling and feeling so happy being out and about but when I do those things I am unhappy and stressed out. I am constantly in a state of worry. I figure out every exit, bathroom, scan my surroundings at all times. I am safe in my home and am in complete control. I have talked to my therapist because I know it's becoming a problem. I can't even take my kids out to the swing set in our back yard. I was scared a stray dog would come in my yard. Sad I know

I do notice I am much better when I don't have my kids with me. I am extremely anxious in public with my kids for fear something will happen out of my control and I feel so vulnerable. I can't enjoy myself