I hate money.

I am supposed to talk to a social assistance worker today to at least get help paying for my medication.

Bills are so backed up, Im almost getting disconnected..

Whats worse, and i feel like a moron about is last week i got this promo in my email for online casino, it was like free 25.00, ive never gambled online and i never really gamble outside of online either.. anyways, of course in my poor state of mind last week any money seemed like good money and the next thing I knew my bank account is overdrawn a whopping 257.00!! They charged me the money I tried to take out, and EIGHT (8!!!!) 30 bounced check fees. They usually just take the money out, and then charge me a 5.00 "presentment"charge.. Well holy crap they didnt this time. I called the bank cause i even tried to save myself before some of them went through the other day, they told me they could stop them, and now this. I think ill go back to not gambling ever for one, and two, I feel like a freaking horrible person. I was so depressed though it hooked me right in, line and sinker.

Im in such a mess, I want to hide. And no sight of coming out of it, as im having to go on EI or SA.

I dont even have money for groceries right now, im gonna borrow some from the boyfriend tomorrow but you know that puts a strain on our relationship whether he agrees or not.

I dont know, frig.