I do admitt I am at times cynical, and I don't appreciate how it makes me feel.
I don't find anything truely attractive about being cynical other than it represents
a recognition of some real limitations of human beings. And I have experienced enough bad in my life where it would be extremely easy if not certain that I walk a line of becoming extremely cynical. And I honestly cannot blame anyone for becoming cynical and a devoted cynic.

But there becomes a point with it that one begins to also be cynical about themselves and then spiral downward into an awful place where that person has no desire to be productive at all. And I am seeing that more and more and there are those that profit from that condition in more ways than one can imagine. And often power and deceit feeds off of this cynicism that spreads and grows like a weed, it is even often incouraged so as to produce confusion and even anger and even a sense of powerlessness. While it is often expressed by many as sign of strength, it doesn't really work, it is not really received that way. Yes, it can repell many, but in that many could be a few that can show ways to push aside cynicism into a more productive way to think and view life and others. Someone who can prevent another from turning their cynicism onto themselves. So though it is very hard, I really try to keep an open mind so at the very least, I don't miss those few that enrich my life and bring me hope. And I do make efforts to avoid those that can only offer me ways to turn cynicism inward preventing me from any real growth.
It can be a challenging process to not totally give into cynicism allowing to eat away at ones own soul.

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