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The concept of cynic is just that for myself, a concept/emotion/train of thought.
All humans will be cynics at some point in the're life's. I personally 'trust no one' in my real life (at the moment). The only reason I am able to open up here on PC is because its so far away. If I was to try to be a nice person where I live I would become the victim, and I'm sick of being a victim.
IRL I am surrounded I'm sure by 'nice people', but they are hidden away from sight (again just at the moment).
I am my own worst cynic, but at the same time I only wish nice things for people that I have never met in my own country, or are in a country starving for a piece of bread or in countries being slaughtered by their own governments. Things like that is fuel for a fire within. When I burn inside with cynical thoughts of those concepts I wish the planet consumed with fire.
But...I know that there are an equal measure of people on earth that do deserve unconditional love as those that do not.
Personally I love my cynical side as much as my 'optimisme' side.
A thing I love to do is listen to live 'Talking Heads gigs'. They give me what I want about cynical thoughts. 'The Big Country' is soooooo cynical but optimistic too.
Psycho Killer. That is myself.........I can't seem to face up to the facts, I'm tense and nervous, I can't relax. I can't sleep because my beds on fire, stay away I'm a 'real live wire'.
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