wolf, I do balance it with my idealism... I am a do-gooder. Maybe that is why I am cynical? I try my best, get frustrated with the non-profit sphere... so shall I cry? Shall I try to change it? But I am trying to make changes already and the means I am using are turning out to be just as corrupted as the rest of the world.

I want to the best for everybody. For the world and the people. But than I know that we live in world where you often have to do the wrong thing for the right reason....

maybe I can search on finding inner peace. Maybe I can find a way to come at peace with reality... or maybe I can just laugh it in its face.

For now... I don't know.