Word History: A cynic may be pardoned for thinking that this is a dog's life. The Greek word kunikos, from which cynic comes, was originally an adjective meaning "doglike", from kuon, "dog"cause of the nickname kuon given to Diogenes of Sinope, the prototypical Cynic. He is said to have performed such actions as barking in public, urniating on the leg of the table, and masturbating on the street. The first use of the word recorded in English, in a work published from 1547 to 1564, is in the plural of members of this philosophical sect. And as I mentioned before it is not until 1596 that we find the first instance of cynic meaning "faultfinder".

Your first word in your above post Venus is touching on the origins that I speak of here.

I can honestly see your dilemma and why one would keep this word so close to their heart, and yet be someone repulsed by it and in a search for a way to discard it.

In today's world there is so much cynicism that the mere thought of any life without the need to feel one must truely keep a sence of cynicism for protection is understandable.

But though I realize that it is important to be cautious, I also know that it can truely stand in the way of progress on every level.

I know my whole life has been about this very realization. And every single attempt I made about finding a productive path, I was constantly met with cynicism. And I truely know that if I had succumbed to that cynicism, I would have never had anything at all. And I can say whole heartedly, it is hard Venus, so very hard.
And I did reach out to you with a deep sense of sympathy when you wrote your poem. And I tried with many words to whisper something in your ear, and yet tell you how sorry I was for you and your generation. Cynicism is such a powerful adversary that I am quickly reminded of just that for each attempt I make to try to whisper an option. And I even wanted to take my lengthy whispers away as I began to see that it might be an opportunity for cynicism to seek a grasp and toss whatever I had managed to capture of the stength I had once had against it.

Every part of my life has been all about that battle. And I can honestly say it was very hard. And most of my life I did search for sources that would provide me with some strength to not give into cynicism. And as always it was only provided in very subtle whispers. Even now in my current struggle, I have to try very hard to hear the slightest whisper and do my best to grab it in my efforts to find a strength I did have.

But I have seen the fortunes of my efforts to fight against constant cynicism. When I first thought about my business and was considering the idea, all I heard was cynical reasons for me to let that idea fall to the wayside. But I didn't listen and what I found was a tough journey, yes, but also a way to learn about the better side of humanity. And I grew from that, instead of sitting on the side lines of life, I was able to participate in it and even find a sense of myself and many positive experiences. However, I will admit that cynisism was always all around me. But what I had learned to do was let it somehow go over my head and focus on the productive meaningful part of my journey, and it was truely there. And as I made this journey I had been tapped in many ways to share my will against cynicism. And I had made a shell that was getting stronger and shared that with others as I worked around cynicism. It takes a lot of practice and it can gain a certain momemtum and way of life that keeps cynicism at bay. And I could see in my efforts to share my way of life with others, it was often difficult for these others to take their minds off the constant wind of cynicism and focus on the things that worked against it. Some did shake and show a great displeasure at working against cynicism and many would ask me how I could manage to do what I do. And it was not easy for me to get these people to focus their attentions away from cynicism.

I had invested in some horses that I could see potential in and it was quite a task to ignore all the cynical comments that were constantly presented. It was my contant tireless efforts to stay the course that finally put all that cynicism to mere dirt upon the ground to only be stepped upon and even hidden in shame.

I have to admit that I have truely been struggling to find my way back to living my life that way. And, everywhere I look, it is only cynicism that invites my soul to keep. And as I am struggling it is everywhere around me and I am only just capable of a whisper at the moment. And all my efforts here at PC is all about that slow journey and I am trying very hard to not give into cynicism. And I struggled with an event that took all my stength and efforts to put into perspective how I can be so alone and why I have to make sure that I stay away from invitations that will only feed me cynicism. And I can say, it has proven to be a very hard journey and I have been very weary, and even ill. But I do know that I have to keep looking back and yet forward and even beyond and often even alone to find my personal strength to avoid becoming a cyincal person who falls into a very unproductive path where I will lose all that remains of those days where I did so well at standing against cynicism.

Sanada? I understand how difficult it must be for you. I can't blame you for finding a need to think that cynicism is a comfort and brings a sense of safety. But, consider where you are in all that cynicism. And I do want to sincerely thank you for the whispers you did manage to place in my ear of the fruits that truely lead me in a better direction out of the pit of cynicism.

I honestly don't blame you for standing your ground in the grasp of cynicism. It is everywhere and it is very powerful. I can only offer whispers as I see a capacity of intellegence and a desire and words that say "SOMEONE HAS TO DO IT". Yes, that is so true, but I can tell you that there really is so little, if any hope of making changes for the better when all you can muster is CYNICISM.

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