Hey everyone I hope you are all well. I dont know if I am just getting my feelings off my chest, asking for advice or what!

Lately I find myself thinking about my family, most likely my mom and dad, then sometimes my brothers, etc. I worry about my parents getting older, they are bother turning 60 soon and I worry about if my mom is happy.

Background: I am the oldest of three. I have two younger brothers, one if in another state in the coast guard (only 3 hours) and the other was in California in the Marines and he just left for Afghanastan. I would like to say we are a very close family, but we arent that close, I mean we are closer than alot of families are and we love eachother very much, but i just feel like we (or maybe me?) has been able to open up that much. My mom has been depressed when we were younger because of the death of a new born (right after i was born) then years later her youngest brother and her dad. I also have had depression, i most likely to now.

My mom doesnt work anymore, she used to teach preschool but the management changed and she quit and never went for a new job. Anyway my father is traveling so much in the next few months that my mom will be home alone all the time, with the two dogs that she adores. I know she is only facebook alot and reads alot but she really doesnt have any friends to talk to (i think). I jsut feel sad. I want my mom to be happy and i know she is mad that my dad is traveling so much as she did tell me that , some is for work some is for fishing and hunting. They do go away in teh summer together, etc.

I am trying to go visit for a day on the weekends so that is nice. I jsut want my mom to know she is special and i dont want her to be depressed. I dont know that she is, but how could she not be if she is anything like me? We have never really talked about the depression in the family.

how do i stop worrying about her/them so much? I will be 33 next week and honeslty i spend my life worrying about everything I just want everyone to be happy and feel loved.

PS. SO SORRY ABOUT THE RAMBLING