I wouldn't trade my bipolar for anything Anika. I am more than just bipolar, although at times this is hard to remember.

My illness has had a positive effect on me in that it has made me more tolerant of others. I find it much easier to overlook others faults (I only hope everyone will overlook my faults). I am much more kind and understanding than before my illness. It is hard to admit, but I was more selfish before onset of my bipolar illness.

Besides, the illness is now under control with a good combination of meds. I still get all the benefits (compassion, understanding, less self critical, etc.) with none of the downside.

I am even exploring the idea of getting a degree in Social Work and using that to enter a practice where I can counsel those with mental illness. I can then put some of my personal knowledge to good use. Just an idea.

Besides, like my dad says, "What exactly is 'normal anyway'"?