Have been feeling like **** for days now. Had a little episode on a night out at the weekend and ended up storming out of a club in the early hours with no coat, no purse, no phone, no keys. And a huge downer on the Sunday, the "no energy to do anything, just want to curl up and die" kind. Then horribly hyped-up yesterday - the negative kind, where everything made me more angry and desperate to do something extreme to make it stop.

In the meantime...

My manager has arranged some self-harm training for our department on Thurs...

Is it pure coincidence that now all I want to do is reach for the scissors??