(((MissMay)))) ((((Open Eyes)))))

Yes. I was molested at the age of 11 by a friend of my sisters who lived out of state. That lady was 24 at the time. Whenever I visited my sister, more occured. I also have DID and PTSD from other big issues. I "fell in love" with that lady when I was 15yrs old. When I was 18 and in a deadly situation with a husband who would be my ex after 6 months of pure hell, she came to "rescue" me and take me to live with her. I lived with her until I was 28 and graduated from college.

The situation was very complex. Very emotionally manipulative (from her - even though she blamed ME for "using" her). And very VERY messed up. A VERY messed up situation that whole thing.

When I finally was able to leave her (I was trapped because I was too poor and she would threaten to send me back to my ex husband who would kill me), I was 28. I met a new partner and have been healing more and more each day. I am now 41.

Bottom line is that even until recently (last year), I blamed everything wrong with that relationship on myself. I was not good enough. I was this. I was that. I did this even while starting therapy (and after having been in therapy in college).
I could not see the one I considered to be the love of my life as anything less than angelic.

It has taken a LOT for my T to show me that it was not my fault a grown woman abused me when I was 11 yrs old. And no matter what type of grooming she did to me, and how much my feelings were bent toward protecting her and such, the bottom line is she was in the wrong. Seriously in the wrong.

My heart goes out to you. Big hugs!