I do too believe it has legitimate basis as a world view. But I came across too many well-meaning people who tried to convince me that bubbly puppies and rainbows optimism is the only way.

I strive to be this serene person who is at peace... I believe I can be dark and cynical and still aquire inner peace. That does not mean I will ignore the reality of the world.



I don't know. Maybe this is helping me to enjoy life with all the joy as it is not infiltred with people I don't need there. And I just don't mean the bad people, but maybe people who are good persons... but wouldn't click with me.

It is not really a fear, imho. I do suffer bit social phobia and yes, I put on a tough mask... but what is the other option? I can be friendly to people when I want or when situation requires it. But for deeper friendships I need people who "get me" and with whom i will not have to pretend too much.

I never was an extrovert, so there is no use trying to make one of myself now... I need my relationships to be meaningful and for them to give me something. So... I test people.



yeah, that is one of the reasons I am avoiding therapy so far. I am afraid that not many Ts would get my "laughing beast" person (although it is a very Czech thing. But I found that many students of psychology became mellower and drier as they approach grasping their diploma).

I don't want to drop my world view altoghter. I am not a pessimist, I am just well informed optimist.



I have American prof who claims to be "a bit of Czech too, I love Moravia and I think Czechs are wonderful people and it is a wonderful country with amazing culture...". Only no self-respecting Czech would spew the word wonderful so many times in one statement.

Yeah, I admit sunshine people scare a little bit as it seems... either dishonest or dellusional as hell.