i hope my believes are not hard for you to hear,, but remember, Joanna, that you are not your thoughts, you are not your feelings,, you are more than that,,, if your brain takes a little wander off the path, there's no need to freak out,, watch it, be mindful, and make notes, be interested,, it will either return to it's former ways, or someone will offer you drugs to encourage it... best wishes, Gus