i have been dealing with this off and on and taking meds since i was 18. (im 31 now.) They thought it was depression up until this past Feb '11 a pdoc i went to diagnosed me with bipolar. Since then its been tampering with diff medicines.
2nd pdoc also diagnosed bipolar (w/o knowing what the 1st one said) I had to get 2nd opinion, lol.

I just feel like ive been feeling this way for sooooo long. Im done feeling this way. I just want to be fixed already.

Yeah, if my depression goes any lower i may have to go inpatient. Last depression was pretty damn bad....like i dont even know how i got thu it. Plus my pdoc is leaving for russia 2nd wk of Oct....ugh

About the Lamictal-It made me suicidal! literally!! doctors are all for it, and ive read how everyone LOVES it, but me, it made me feel like Sh!!. Im just gonna take it and he can see for himself what a wreck this is gonna make me. Maybe it'll light a fire under his a##