I wanted to talk about this with my T this week but my anger over my attorney got in the way. Ugh, I just wish this whole experience with the result from my neighbor's negligence would just be over so I can focus on myself and getting on with life.

I will have to try again and see if there is time to discuss this next time.

Thanks wepow for sharing. Until I saw this I never tought about this being a part of my past. It might explain how even though I was so frightened I also felt sorry for my brother, I was so confused when I was little and frightened too.

I tried to talk with my therapist about how this situation with my attorney triggers me and my past, but there just wasn't enough time to dive into my past and explain how it brings me to those same feelings of being trapped and not knowing how to get help. I actually can't believe how earily similar it is. Wondering how, if I tell, how it might make things worse and I might suffer more. How awful is that at my age.
At least I have had a couple people from PC at least reach out to me. I had no one growing up, only my stuffed animals and eventually my pony.

And the odd thing about it is that when my husband learned of my past he couldn't understand why I didn't stand up for myself, but he wasn't there, I was clearly overpowered. And oddly enough he sees me stuggle now, but he is fearful too and is not really sure he wants to see the truth. And yet he sees it. It is so strange. And I feel like I cant say anything and truely explain it. And it is the kind of experience where you have to be there and witness it, only I the one that is seeing it and experiencing it. It's just not as easy as some people might think.

I am not sure if this is stockholmes or not, but I wonder. I truely feel a very similar strange trap.

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