thanks for you guys responding back. i just dont see why im taking all these meds and still feeling this way. Last depression episode i hit (which wasnt even that long ago) i was feeling like suicide is my only option to get out of this pain. But then the rational side of me kicks in and i kinda talk myself outta it?!
Now, im starting to feel that way again...its like everyday since sunday is low, lower...its like gosh, how low is it gonna go...i mean if my pain is so bad that i feel like that?!
Sucks too, cause i saught out therapy, but im not getting anything and i really think that cound help me by now....i called pdoc in emergency last depression episode, i think i may have to again...im so depressed its scary...weird thing is, i can put on a happy face for when i go to my kids school or wherever for the time being so no one knows how much pain im truly in...not even 1 of my friends...no one except my father
Im on Emsam patch 12mg too. i thought that might help with my lows, but i guess not