I suffered what feels to me like a lot of emotional abuse from my dad. But then, i have always been very sensitive, and probably felt hurt and traumatized by things that other kids would have just let roll of their back. So I am not sure if what my dad did was that bad. I just know that he picked at me and made fun of my feelings, sometimes until i cried and he would sometimes laugh about it. And he yelled at me alot for not doing things just right.

Sannah,

My session is tomorrow, and I'm starting to get very scared feelings like i want to cancel.

Yes, we did talk about it a long time ago, but it has been a long time. I remember her telling me to pretend it was some other kid that went through what i did -- would i blame them and think they were at fault for what happened to them? I know i wouldn't. But i have a different standard for me than for them. It seems different. I don't know why.

As far back as i remember, i have always been kind of a space cadet. It has only been latley that i have begun to figure out that i think i have trouble with sensory overload. I think that i cannot tolerate too much happening at one time -- i can't process it. It's almost like my mind starts shutting down if there's too much going on. ... Also, when i am inside my head thinking, i do not notice what is physically around me. When i drive in the car, it's hard for me to drive and try to visit with the passengers at the same time. So what looks like having a bad memory or being forgetful might be a problem with not being able to handle "input," I guess you'd call it. That might be why i do not remember all the details of my abuse too. It was probably "too much" to process or something.