TerryL - Thank you. I will think of what you said. I appreciate the encouragement.

I tried to contact my pdoc just now. She's unavailable due to on-going illness. My appointments have been repeatedly canceled for the same reason. I haven't been
seen in months and I am doing poorly. I don't think I am properly diagnosed. It seems I may be bipolar. That's been suggested before. There is no family support for me. I am kind of scared that I keep relapsing, even after intervals of feeling very well. I am very grateful to the PC community for the caring shown here.