Even with bad days in-between, I feel I'm improving. The higher med dosage is definitely having an effect. Not being constantly overwhelmed by feelings of anger, resentment, hate, hopelessness, despair and high anxiety is just such an amazing change. It seems to be like this most days now even if some days feel like a relapse.
I actually feel much more alive again, whilst I felt something was dead and / or dying inside me a few weeks / months ago. I hope it will continue in a positive way.
I have no intention of going down on med in the near future even if my GP might advise me to do so.