Thanks, kj44. My question for you, I guess, would be did the infidelities all happen before you were diagnosed, or did any of them happen while you were on meds.

My biggest fear at this point is something like this happening again. I owned up to with my husband immediately, and he almost killed himself. I am terrified that even with meds and therapy I have the potential to do anything like this again. If that is the case, I honestly have to consider whether it is better to let him go now rather than to destroy him over the coming years. He is gung ho at this moment to designate himself my caretaker and is outlining parameters and restrictions to help keep me from doing anything I don't really want to do, but he is also totally confident that with meds and therapy and precautions I will never put him through this again. I never would have thought I could do it the FIRST time, so I am not so confident that it won't happen again, meds or no meds.

So my question is... can I be reasonably sure it won't happen again as long as I take proper precautions, or will I likely do something like this again now that it has happened once? Did anyone manage NOT to do it again with proper meds and therapy, or did anyone have an incident WHILE on meds and in counseling? Anyone?