you need people too...even if you think you don't...even if you think they hurt you..or you hurt them...our brains are wired to connect....as for your other goals...you can absolutely have every single one of those things, they can all be yours. It may be a long road to get there but, I for one think you can do it. There is a catch of course....i don't think you can do it alone....and frankly...why would you want to.