My one very important suggestion is to hold onto your beliefs & your values that are based on your beliefs & don't allow society to pressure into acting in any other way. You know from your belief that God will provide you the right person to fill the role of wife....don't settle for anything less than what God will provide. You don't know at what point in your life this will be provided, or yes, even if there is a wife there for you, but I believe that even if God doesn't provide the right person, it's for a good reason.

I know how discouraging it feels to want something that you aren't being provided at the moment.....my struggle is a bit different but I know how depressed I struggle not to feel so badly wanting my horse to be with me after I moved 2100 miles away after leaving my husband.....a mistake that we both made 33 years before I finally left.

I can honestly say that it is sometimes better to be without than it is to be with the wrong person.....& at the age of 20, you are still very young.....just don't let societies lack of moral values pressure you into doing something you know is wrong......your long run future is much more important than the temporary pleasures that the world is selling.

After 33 years of being married to the wrong person, I can definitely express the fact that I was so very depressed when with my husband & the depression from that relationship left when I left. There are other issues that are depressing in life, but God provides ways to make it through the depression if it's situational. If your depression is a chemical one that has been inherited through the generations, then there are meds that can help with that.....but if your depression is only because you don't have a GF......look at how many people are depressed that have a GF that isn't right for them.

God never promised to provide us an easy life, but he has promised to provide for our needs. Hold on & learn to be patient. Remember, patience is a gift that can only be developed when we are put in a position to develop it.

If you want to talk any deeper about the Christianity, it needs to be done via PM as we can't post about religious beliefs except in the appropriate social groups. Feel free to PM me.....I understand how you are feeling but also understand how important it is to hold onto your belief.