So my T tells me today she is going on vacation for a week ... Which is ok but then I immediately have to go out of town for 15 more days after that... So no T for like 22 days. I asked if I could call her , although she is not opposed it may be logistically impossible for the first 10 days or so. T is also not a hugger and it's not a me thing... Because I asked. But as I was leaving today I wanted to hug her and I could feel the tears welling up and I quickly left. When I got in my car it dawned on me that I am going to miss T, like a child would miss her mom. I emailed her about this and she said it was transference. I asked her to call me and she said she will try tomorrow. So my question is, how is this going to help me get better? I have yet to break down in session as I am very guarded. But this changes the game. My mother never hugged me , actually no one did very often and now I have a mommy feeling toward my not hugging T? Seriously how will this help heal me, if I I roll with this transference thing and allow myself to grow closer to T I am only setting myself up fo sadness . Is this how it works? What about when therapy is over it will devastate me.