No advice but I can relate. My t had to cancel on me this week, and has not called me back yet to reschedule. At first I was a bit frantic, but now I feel ok. I started to fantasize about him NEVER calling me back, which partly frightens me and partly makes me feel like I just pulled a fast one because I wouldn't have to go anymore; like a kid who got to stay home from school on a gorgeous day and they're not sick enough to stay home. And I KNOW I need to go, but it's just so hard for me to go through with it. It mostly sucks the life out of me.

I have a love/hate relationship with therapy in general; right now I feel rather ambivalent.