I've been seeing a therapist for about 3 years. But I stopped seeing the her recently just because of some insurance issues and then by the time those fixed themselves I just felt like I'd separated enough that I should just move on. My therapist herself had said right before my insurance cut out that I could move to less frequent sessions, so... I guess I just ran with that

I guess I'm feeling insecure because there are these big parts of myself that I feel I don't know. I'm really unsure of my sexuality right now, and I'm unsure about whether my coping mechanisms are healthy or not, and I'm not really sure if I am truly ME in my every day life.

I wonder if, in therapy, I got some grounding in my identity because I had someone to check in with and bump up against pretty regularly. Now, I feel like I just have this lack of belief/understanding/confidence in myself.

I'm not really sure if I'd benefit from going back to therapy, since I'm not sure I'm motivated enough or really in any place to actually work on this. I don't have a specific question, just wanted to share with you all, maybe someone can relate. For some reason I catch myself wishing I'd run into my (former?) therapist or wishing she'd call, but I know that I also can't stand her and don't feel like working with her.

Life is weird. I wish I had fewer uncertainties about who I am in my essence as an individual.