I feel your pain big-time Sabrina.
I constantly self-sabotage, all I want to do is eat it seems like. Especially once I am home for the evening. I'm addicted to sugar- lately its cookies and ice cream.

I also have that gym membership rotting away- just can't get myself to go- too self conscious I guess. Part of me thinks not losing the weight is fear of success (for me anyway)
All this talk can't really help you, I just wanted you to know you are not alone.
There has to be a way to accomplish this goal of losing weight and getting healthy.