Hi all...

Well, I'm back from Disney Land, the happiest place on Earth... It was better then the places I have been... But...

While I was there I came to many of the same conclusions that Troy has affirmed for me above... All I've really known for most of my adult life is the military, and through out that time they've always talked about how much they care about me and my family... But every time I've been gone, no one has checked to make sure my wife and kids were OK except me.

And now that I need someone to be there for me, no one is there except my wife and kids... I hate placing 14 years of service in the hands of the VA, but I know that another 6 years just isn't possible. I have to go back to work tomorrow, and I hate the fact that I know I will be faced with the expectation of being good to go... Of returning to the line, like nothing has happened... A few days off and back into the grinder....

I'm getting together my records, putting things in place, and hopefully by the end of the year I will no longer be in the military... Wow, that sucks to say it out loud...

I just want to be able to sleep again without the dreams...