Intellectually I knew I too carried the capacity to be the worse as well as the best any human can be, but secretly I feared only bad was within and not good. In therapy as each layer was/is unpeeled
I got afraid of T's correcting me or critising me. Not that she does, and I begun to dread going to therapy. Gradually I realized it was my own realisation begining emotionally, I begun to "look" at those dark parts of me and for a while I thought the knowledge would kill me, I wouldn't be able to bear knowing this about me. But it drip fed itself into my consiousness and not only could I bear it, it "normalized" itself.

When I read about the evil people do now, I don't have knee jerk reactions and fear them, or condem them, I no now that given the wrong circumstances in life we can all be that person, we are all from the same wheel. BUT we do have a choice over what we do with this knowledge, do we let it control us or do we learn to understand it and accept it? In accepting our own inner enermy, we befriend it and take the power away from it.