Hello, Ariesmars
I don't know you at all, but before I sign off to think about some things, I just wanted to say that you will get through this.
That sounds so trite.
Life is all we really have. May as well have it, no matter how bad it is. All those billions of years of natural programming. Survive... live... keep breathing. And things will get better if you just stay.
Or, you know... if you really feel that way out, try putting it off in the same way as AA prescribe. Is it really important right at this minute? May as well stay for this minute, this hour, this day. And then soon, you'll be thinking: "I'm glad I survived that bit."
I don't know if any of that is helping...
((((Ariesmars))))
We really need a cup of tea smiley...