Hi there, I know there's nothing I can say right now that can make your life just be... happy and wonderful and all these problems to go away.

but DON'T give up hope. With care you can get better. don't give up in this.

I think you should call an emergency number NOW, please! Don't give up, you are dealing with so much right now and you need help. if you're afraid to mention ED then mention the other things first and leave that till later.