So saw T this morning. I was crying in waiting room and all the words just came spilling out as he asked me why im so depressed.

I felt like we finally had a deeper convo n he asked me some deeper questions
Too.

But the only thing is he said again i need to fight my depression. But this time i told him straight up i feel like i cant. He said you HAVE to then gave me ideas like get outta house, do activity i enjoy, EXERCISE he saids a big one.

But again i told him all good ideas, but i feel so depressed and tired and worthless i dont know if i can muster up n do those things

He said well, you'll die-meaning you'll just be a vegetable laying on the couch....there are plenty ppl like that u dnt wanna be like that do u?

I get hes trying to help me overcome this major depression, but i feel he doesnt really understand how debilitating it is. If the cure was just doing activties, wouldnt everyone be cured??! I cried and cried n told him how i feel i'd be better off dead since im no use to anyone, not even my kids....

In some ways our visit was great. We got into deeper stuff, but idk iy irritates me hes like your depressed get up and do something! Fight it! I felt like asking him has HE ever dealt with this??