My sessions with T have been incredibly focused and intense for quite some time now. Tuesday we got onto a subject, rather unforeseen to both of us, that has really triggered PTSD stuff. Let's just say some connections have been made that were a surprise for both of us. I was left with flashbacks and anxiety and nightmares after our session Tuesday, so I opted to take today off to get in a 2nd session with my T this week.

Today T had me looking at those events in rather minute detail. I was able to give him that detail and actually share something that had happened to me that I have never told anyone before (I barely told myself to tell you the truth). The whole time this was going on, I knew I was safe. T kept making eye contact with me to remind me that what I was talking about wasn't happening; it isn't real anymore; it's just a memory; it has no power to hurt me.

The things I was talking about were pretty horrendous, but I trusted my T to gently guide me through them, and that is exactly what he did. I have one more thing I need to tell him. He actually made a guess pretty close to the truth so I know he won't be shocked. On the contrary, he made it very clear that even this was not my fault and that he would completely understand the situation. Very scary stuff, but I know I can trust him to hear the truth. This is information and details I would never dream of telling anyone else.

I'm so glad T is my safe person.