with the profound - almost compulsion - to apologize to your therapist? I mean for everything.

This happened to me yesterday. I left the office feeling very very horrible about, well just about everything.

I actually called him and apologized for basically being there.

It was quite horrible.

I can't help but feel I should be past this in some way. I am still so exquisitely sensitive to rejection and feelings of any ill will that I may detect from him.

I wish I was stronger.