I started therapy with my T in early February. I was set up with her by the hospital where I spent 10 days after a rare reaction to an SSRI that made me both manic and suicidal. Before that, I'd been in therapy with several different therapists for years each, with a few years between, all for PTSD and recurring major depression.

I did not feel 'bonded' to this therapist and found her annoying at first, but I gave it a chance because I knew I'd just been through a lot and considered that maybe I wasn't thinking clearly.

Well, it's been eight months now, and although I DO see some progress, my reservations about my therapist are still there. I'm not saying nothing good has come of therapy with her--that's too harsh. But I still don't feel bonded to her or totally trusting, and she still annoys me.

Here are my reservations (complaints, I guess):

1) She forgets important things about my history over and over again and asks me to fill her in. I just explained how I ended up in the hospital to her last week, for the gazillionth time, because she couldn't remember. She seemed to have no knowledge or understanding of the drug side effect, as if she'd never heard of it.

2) She often stifles a yawn or yawns outright during sessions. I understand that it's hard to listen to people all day, but it still bugs me.

3) She pressured me for six months to join this trauma recovery group therapy thing she co-moderates, and I said again and again I didn't think it would be good for me, because I've tried that before and it just ends up triggering me and making me retrace stuff I've already dealt with. So finally I did join, and by the fourth session I'm having nightmares and she is not sure I should go now. Duh. I mean, it's irritating. I TOLD her that's what happens in group for me, usually, and she blew me off and then it happened.

4) Last week during group she went on this tangent about how bad oral hygiene can cause mental illness because the two are correlated--as in, people who have good teeth have less mental illness. This is nonsense. Brushing your teeth is good for you, but it doesn't prevent or cure mental illness. People with good teeth have less mental illness because they have money to take better care of themselves, not because teeth are tied to your brain. She doesn't understand the difference between causation and correlation--a basic tenet of experimental psych.

I've raised some of these issues with her, and it seems better for awhile, then it all starts to annoy me again.

What should I do? I've never terminated therapy because I didn't like the therapist. I feel bad about it, like I'm just being a ***** or something, but I still don't feel good with her.

Any feedback would be welcome. Has anyone else been in this spot? What did you do?