So here is my dilemma. I have a very addictive personality. My father is a drug addict (crack/cocaine) and an alcoholic. His siblings and my grandfather are alcoholic. Lots of alcoholism on mom's side too.

I've got bipolar disorder and ptsd which translates to lots of depression and anxiety in my case. I've struggled with self injury on and off for several years. When I'm not cutting, I tend to self medicate by overeating, and in the past and recently by drinking to try and calm down. I'm still not in a place where I have healthy coping skills yet. With my family history and how much I enjoy alcohol I'm thinking that the cutting may be the lesser of two evils until I learn healthy coping skills. What do you think? Better the demon you know right?

I guess I'm just worried that if I keep on with the drinking I'll end up an alcoholic which seems more dangerous than having some scars.

What do you guys think the "safer" and "less long term consequences" addiction would be? Cutting or drinking? I want an outside perspective.