Thank you sparrowstail,
Really, I hope you read this advice from sparrowtail, one mans suffering and learned experiences can be the salvation of another.

PTSD is hard enough, the way you start to sense something is not right, and then try to deny it is not realizing that it just wont go away. If you truely feel you cannot do anymore, you deserve to be heard without you being led to shame and fear.

And the incredible shame it brings, something that says to you, your not the same person you were, and you can't understand what that means. So, though you are not the same man, you do want to see if you can somehow recapture it, but the truth is that you can't. When you start to realize that you want to withdraw in shame and the hard part is unless someone reaches out, some that can say, your still a man, this is what happens I hear you, you stay in shame and fear.

The only way this will serve those that will also fall vicitm, and so many do, and hide in shame, is to stand up, say it outloud and make it known.

Your not a loser, your not a coward, you are, in fact, a human being that can very well suffer from this exposer to constant trauma. How you feel now? So many feel too, only they hide and do not speak up and suffer needlessly. THATS WRONG, THEY DESERVE BETTER, YOU DESERVE BETTER. The only way something gets done is when the voices break beyond a shame they don't deserve and speak up.

The squeeky wheel gets the grease. But in this case there has to be many squeeky wheels that make enough constant noise until they get heard and EVERYONE WHO DESERVES THE GREASE GETS IT.

Open Eyes