Awww BeautifulMess,

You made me laugh out loud...if you only knew..I swear I almost wrote the exact same words a few weeks ago...except I was just going to go and play in traffic. That feeling of vulnerability is just so awkward and frustrating and maddening at times. I am glad that you took the time away to actually breathe and look up and around a bit. I know it's been hard on you having to wait the whole 2 weeks. Maybe you need to ask him for the occasional just relaxed and healing appt to give you that same mental and emotional break even when you are with him. My T and I had one about 6 weeks ago, and it was really great. I think about once every 4 months or so I'm going to ask for another.

I'm so sorry that your T had a death in the family, and hope that he will be all right.

Hope you can continue to relax and enjoy your weekend now that you know you will be seeing him very soon again.

Hugs,

WB