Hi Blue Casper,

I'm sorry you are going through all of this, I get how you feel with the isolation and social anxiety as I get like that when I am depressed.

How do you know for sure that you have Bipolar disorder? Were you ever diagnosed with by a psychiatrist?

As far as avoiding meds, a support group might help. You could Google any 12 step in your area. Do you have anyone, who could go with you, to at least a 1st meeting? It would make the next one way easier to get to. The people are always really kind.

Best wishes to you.