i go through this a lot lately with my T.i am so not use to feeling like i care about her or any of that stuff.it kind of blindsided me and i am so not comfortable with it at all.i didnt even want to go on vacation because i wanted to stay here and see her.i dont like it so i totally understand that back and forth feeling and how uncomfortable it must make you feel and how strange.glad you were eventually able to take a small break for yourself also.