This whole ordeal has left me so sad that I hated to revisit this thread. Thank you all so much for your responses and support. When I called my therapist to apologize, I told him I didn't need a call back. Of course at the time, I wasn't sure I merited one (that's how poorly I felt)

I see now that was a mistake because I'm left feeling - "You see, I was right, he *is* rejecting me.

Look, I know this is about something that is happening outside of therapy. I don't know what that may be, but there is no way my therapist would do anything to hurt me. I know I have the ego strength and the trust to cope with this.

Sometimes (not always) I feel like I have to be so friggin' perfect all the time.