I'm so sorry really! My brothers were both in the military (we are a big military family). Both of my brothers came back with PTSD. The eldest brother being there in the very beginning right after 9-11 and the other brother from getting hit by an IED. He's on disability since he has shrapnel in his back. The military just threw them out like they were dirt. My eldest brother serving 8 years before they just disgarded him and the other serving 3 before they kicked him out for medical reasons. He has no medical. He only gets help for what the military caused physically, not emotionally. They wont see him for anything other than his back. His nightmares never stopped.

You're not alone in this, unfortunate as it is. I respect what the military stands for and feel sorrow for what the men and women in uniform have to endure during these times but the system is very flawed. It is full of men who put themselves in front of all others and that's not the way it is supposed to be run in the military. Somewhere the government made a terrible turn,, somewhere ages ago. Thinking back to what has been said about vietnam things were terrible for the soldiers there as well. It's flawed and needs to be fixed so good men as yourself and my brothers and the many others out there do not have to lose their lives after thinking they had saved their lives at some point being over seas. You think when you're home you will be safe and secure but the safety is taken in your dreams and the security is taken from the military.

Im sorry you have to hide this because as you know, they are quick to take it all away. I'm sorry you and your family have to endure this. I wish you all the best and you find a way to find peace for the things that are haunting you.