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Oct 01, 2011, 12:27 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2011
Location: CT
Posts: 1,145
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Originally Posted by BlueCasper
It has been awhile since I have been on this site, or any other site like this for that matter. Yet, I don't know what to do. As Ive mentioned in other (older) posts, I do not see any Dr.s or take any kind of med's for my bipolar, or other disorders I have.
Nothing has changed there, I am still suffering daily without any pro help. I have thought long and hard about going into seeing a counselor, however, I am still against taking any kind, or type of med's prescribed by a Dr. I just don't think that is the whole answer.
The reason I am writing this today is, well, I am lost and I don't know what to do. Dealing with the day in and day out problems with being bipolar and suffering from intense social anxiety I find it very hard to do what needs to be done in my life for a positive change.
Ive worked going on over 19yrs in the bar industry and I'm am very tired of it. I need a change in my life or one of these days I'm afraid loosing this battle that myself has waged on myself.
I don't know, i guess when it comes down to it I need positive change, having positive people who actually care in my life would be nice. I spend an awful large amount of time alone, withdrawn, and isolating due to everything i go through so no one else has to be bothered by it. Yet, I don't know how much more of this I can take. I'm living on the edge. One day I feel wonderful, spectacular even. The next day I find myself fighting with myself wondering why I am even alive if this is all i have to look forward to. There as to be more to life than this, isn't there? I don't like who I have become, and I want more. This cant be all there is to live for in this life. I push people away from me so they either one, don't have to deal with what I go through due to dealing with their own problems in their life's, or two, I stay single and alone cause the way I can be at times effects others and often hurts them. Why cant I just be normal? I cant even work and hold down a normal job. The current job I have my boss has wanted to fire me many times for quote, "having to deal with my BS" unquote. I often spend hours trying to find answers to this perplexing situation, yet, I am coming up short handed after all these years. Not to mention the desire to try anymore.
If anyone has any suggestions other than going to see a Dr, a counselor, or getting on, or taking meds. By all means, please help me?
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I just want to say welcome back. I had wondered where you went to. Something that may help you a little bit is to take fish oil (Omega 3's). It is natural and can help with BP Disorder since you don't want to go on traditional medication.
As far as work is concerned, I hope you find your niche somewhere where you can feel better about your life.
Make sure you take some time for YOU and YOU alone. Maybe do a little bit of Retail Therapy if you have the money to do so. If not, just take some time doing something you enjoy to offset your problems a little bit. Make sure that everyday you take some time out to do something for yourself, even if it means being alone with yourself for awhile to decompress.
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