I just started with this new therapist. I've seen her twice and she's really judgmental. She told me once. "I once had a paranoid schizophrenic as a patient(like me), she didn't listen to a thing anyone said. It was awful." What was her reasoning for telling me that? Because I better be different? Because FEAR is part of the illness. And sometimes the delusion that everyone is out to get you?? So it's part of the illness and it sort of made me mad that she didn't understand this.

She makes judgments about a lot of people actually. And I can't tell if she's doing it on purpose to piss me off and make me say something, or if she really is that judgmental. Because she's really well known in my town, and I can't imagine a psychologist getting by into popularity if she's as judgmental as I've seen her. She basically said that because my mom was neglectful when I was young, that made her a "loser". Then she switched and told me my mom had to be "good" because she has a well off job and that my step dad is probably a loser because he drives truck. WHHAT??

My step dad makes twice as much as my mom, as a school counselor and he's as innocent as they come. He calls his mom every night and goes to church every sunday and has saved enough money that he won't have to collect SSDI. He'll just live off his pension. He's one of the most responsible citizens I've ever met.

She also told me that my old therapist was a loser because he only had his masters degree in social work. That's ridiculous. This upset me because I need her to be neutral. I am very mad at my old therapist, and I need to work it out, because I still have to work with him as part of my other team. I need to be able to say how he hurt me, without her drawing conclusions. She's something else. I've only seen her twice, but I'm giving her a chance to redeem herself. Especially after I tell her how much I don't appreciate the judgments. She's not very neutral. Like therapists should be. I fear that I constantly have to give her "the real picture of them" and it doesn't allow me to get over my hurt.

Like I want her to know that my mom has redeemed herself, but she called her a loser for being neglectful in the past. People make mistakes right? I already know this. I've already forgave my mom and I don't appreciate her downing her like that. She's my mom and she went to therapy herself and worked REALLY REALLY hard to support me in my mental illness and I love her for that. And my "social worker" therapist did a lot for me. And I don't appreciate her assuming he isn't worthy because he doesn't have the right "credentials". Credentials mean crap. Obviously he was better at relating to me then this woman, with he PhD. I'm so angry she makes these judgments. She sighs and rolls her eyes whenever I say something like "my parents divorced at age five". A lot of that stuff I got over while with my "loser" social worker.

I mean who is she to make these judgments? She told me that because I am on state insurance that she can't charge me for missing, but after two missed sessions I'm "gone", because chances are I'm irresponsible. What? In all the years I spent with my last therapist I was very devoted. Winter storm or flu I was there.

I am so upset over this. Because I spend my entire life realizing that under the surface people aren't how they present themselves. And here she is, an educated, well known woman making all sorts of judgments. Has she done nothing with her career but gone to school? Because she kind of sucks.