(((Moongirl))) Bravo to you for reaching out now. I waited until I was 38. I was the 'fat girl' from the age of 8 on up to this past year. I lost weight I'm almost at my goal weight. I have friends now because I hold no shame. I smile more and people respond to that in a very positive way. I don't 'hide' anymore. Keep posting as it helped me in a very big way. Many hugs and you can do this. One step at a time.