Someone once said that the great struggle of life was being torn between the need to escape the relationship patterns from your childhood that you keep repeating and the need to maintain what feels familiar to you. How profound.

I experience the recreation of old relationship patterns all the time, and knowing this has given me the awareness to recognize when it's happening and get out. Unfortunately, I have no idea how to go about healthier relationships so experience a lot of anxiety when getting close to others who would probably be good for me. So, I am probably going to be alone for a while.