I am 23. Since I was twelve I have have issues with body image, self esteem, eating, etc...

At 12 I started over eating, and I became over weight. At 15 I started purging, and by 16 I would go days on end without eating, then purge if I did. I lost 100 lbs.

At 18 I got pregnant, and decided enough was enough and wanted to eat healthy for my baby. Healthy eating when well for a while, then came the overeating. I gained 80 lbs during my pregnancy.

After my daughter was born I lost 50 lbs by barely eating, and still purging. My husband got deployed and I starting binging again, and gained 70 lbs. Then I got pregnant again, and stayed the same weight. After he was born I lost 20 lbs, but then gained back 30.

I have started binging and purging again. Mainly binging, and once in a while purging. I need to stop this before It comes back full force, but how? It started out once a month I purged, then twice a month, now it's every week. I need to lose about 80 lbs, but it needs to be the healthy way. How can I resist binging? And not go overboard with not eating for days? I just can't seem to get into the healthy way of things. I am sick of this up and down rollercoaster of gain and lose gain and lose...I just want some stability.....anyone....help.....please????