You know I just had an idea as i read your last post and I wondered if maybe you got a journal and wrote those emails out in a journal throughout the week and maybe an hour before your session go back and see if there is something you need to share with her. If there is just bring it. I dont know just an idea...I dont think stopping the emails is a good idea at least not cold turkey unless you have an alternative...like the jounal. I dont know if that might help or not...i know for me to write someone when emotions are stirred typically leads to regret for some of the things I have said and doesnt matter what it is about. The idea behind waiting a day or more before doing so is to prevent the emotions from overriding your more rational perspective. Rainbow you have alot you are seeing and like anything change can be very scarey. I think in the end continuing therapy to make any changes will leave you a happier healthier person. It may not feel good initially because it is new and uncomfortable but in the end you will find some of these changes very good for you. Again dont know you very well...so just my 2 cents.