Ack! It sounds very painful but your insight into your own process is amazing. It's obvious you've done a lot of work and are getting somewhere. It shows.

I've had horrible sessions where I got triggered and it was worse than root canal and it feels so naked at the end, ugh, it's an awful feeling. But I'm never as lucid as you are about what it all means and where to go from there.

Hope your next session is less painful. Yeah the money thing sucks. Like it's not already hard enough to have the problem, but I guess it is what it is. We each do what we can and it's not that easy.

Hang in there!