I am a 26 year old college student who daydreams too much. Why would I possibly want to daydream, wasting so much time, when there is so much more interesting and important work to do? I could benefit from studying to build knowledge in preparation for a job, but I find myself daydreaming about people who I feel dislike me. I am wishing for myself and others to have harmonious relationships, but that is just not reality. I come in contact with people who are different and can't get along with very well from time to time. I get discouraged when people don't like me because I have low self esteem. I always feel as if I'm a bad person because of a bad past that follows me everywhere I go. I just feel as if I can't be so easily forgiven. I won't talk about my past, but it is a very bad past that I do not want to easily reveal to others, especially those who will judge me and put me in a box. I want to be able to study and focus. What can I do to resolve the conflicts that propel me to daydream? Everytime I feel bad I resort to daydreaming as a solution to feel better. I leave that mental state of pain and escape into a fantasy that I create to feel better. I am disillusioned. I can't face reality. I have work to do. I can't waste another minute. I don't want to end up poor, feeding off others and burdening others. I want to make it on my own, but I need to get through school and gain skills that will allow me to work attentively and efficiently.I would appreciate all the tips and advice suggested regarding success in college education.
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