totally get you, i myself dont have a learning disorder but my brother does and he sounds quite similar, although he does not try to make friends as he has given up. But i also am not great at keeping relationships with people but i will say one thing to you. NEVER CHANGE YOU FOR OTHERS. if they dont love you for who you are they really arent worth it and i know it sounds cheesy but its the truth cause sooner or later you will be you and then they'll leave as easily as they came, hope this helps