Not familiar with your law suit, but it sounds like it's related to your flashbacks....know it isn't a good thing for the mind to take over, but it would definitely be more proof on your side of your condition. I remember going through the depositions on my workman's comp case. It was horrible for me because everytime it would be scheduled I would end up getting so stressed & just want to end my life & not go through it......so I would end up in the psych hospital.....again & again & again. I finally got through the depositions & lived through it.....didn't win the case, but ended up getting a settlement from them.

I know how stressful it is & I don't know a good way to really get through it. Court issues still stress me out even when I only had to show up without saying anything last week for a charge I have made against the guy who took money for my horse fencing without doing anything 4 years ago....& even got the small claims judgment against him last year. I was a complete mess in my DBT group that morning before having to go to court.

The most important thing is to always tell it like it is/was. Usually the lawyer ran through questions before the deposition also, it helped some, but my mind couldn't focus well during the depositions & I would take valium to calm down the anxiety which just made my brain even worse at concentrating.....& yes, all the feelings that I had gone through that was the cause of my mental illness just snowballed.....thus my reactions & why I would end up in the psych hospital every time.

Wish I had some wonderful insight that would help, but some things we just have to get through the best we can. My best wishes are with you through this along with my understanding of how you are feeling.